Monday, March 30, 2009

Zoo, Life, Jalen, etc...

On Saturday, we braved the weather and went to the zoo. It was a wonderful time and I can't tell you how happy it made me to have just the three of us hang out for a day. Nicholas, Jalen, and I started our journey around 10 and got to the zoo around 11:15. We went through the entire zoo without a single rain drop. When we were finishing up at the elephants, the rain poured.We hopped on the tram. Ran to the car. Made a few sandwiches. And headed home! Jalen loved the monkeys because they were hitting each other on the head with sticks. He liked the ostriches, too. They came about 2 feet from us. We were sad the polar bears weren't out. They're sick! Overall, it was a wonderful day and I thank God I was able to spend the day with just my boys! :)

Lately, we've been battling the sleep issue with Jalen. At night, we put him to sleep. We lay with him until he falls asleep. We know he's a little old to be doing that but with our current situation it is what has worked best. But, now, he's getting to the point where he likes to lay there forever, talk, scream, yell, be funny, etc... It's hard for us. Hopefully, this week, I'll get a room painted and move his stuff out of mine. It will be a huge change for both of us, but I figure after a rough week, he'll get used to it. Pray for us! It will be hard but eventually we'll all be under one roof and we'll be glad we endured a rough week for peaceful years.

You know, motherhood is the best, but hardest thing I've ever gone through. I always say I never knew what love was until I met my son for the first time. Sometimes at night I lay in bed and I smile, laugh, cry, and just shake my head at things we've been through. I remember having him like it was yesterday, so for everyone that says they don't really remember, I don't know what you're talking about. I remember bringing him home and sleeping with him on my chest. I remember his smiles and his crazy afro (that I really do miss). I remember the outfits he wore when he was a baby. I remember the nights we were wondering how do we get him to stop crying! I remember when he was sick and throwing up all night. I remember when we had to walk him in circles around the kitchen to get him to go to sleep, but when we would stop, he would wake up. We'd take turns taking laps. I remember his first steps. I could go on forever. What I'm getting at is that there are times in life that when you're in the moment you're wondering when it is going to end, but once it is over, you're wondering why you wanted it to end. Kids grow up way to fast.

Driving home from work tonight I heard this song -- it brought me to tears. Just think about it...
Darius Rucker - It Won't Be Like This For Long
He didn't have to wake up
He'd been up all nite
Lay'n there in bed listen'n
To his new born baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says
It gonna be OK

It wont be like this for long
One day soon we'll look back laugh'n
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby just hold on
It won't be like this for long

Four years later bout four thirty
She's crawling in their bed
And when he drops her off at preschool
She's clinging to his leg
The teacher peels her off of him
He says what can I do
She says now don't you worry
This will only last a week or two

It wont be like this for long
One day soon we'll drop her off
And she wont even know you're gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It wont be like this for long

One day soon she'll be a teenager
And at times you'll think she hates him
Then he'll walk her down the aisle
And he'll raise her veil
But right now she up and cry'n
And the truth is that he don't mind
As he kisses her good night
And she says her prayers
He lays down there beside her
Till her eyes are finally closed
And just watch'n her it breaks his heart
Cause he already knows
It wont be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
Yeah this phase is gonna fly by
He's try'n to hold on
It wont be like this for long
It wont be like this for long

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