I Will Learn To Love..

I will learn to let go of what I cannot change

I will learn to forget what I cannot change

I will learn to love what I cannot change

But I will change, yeah I will change

Whatever I, whatever I can...

Home Sweet Home..

Well, we are back from the beach and I am a year older. I woke up to roses and balloons, then streamers from one end of the apartment to the other. I had a beautiful cake that was an ocean scene (and now that I think about it.. I never took a picture of it! Darn!). It was an overall great day. We ate at Joe's Crab Shack and just relaxed. When I woke up the next day, I told myself that I sure hope this morning doesn't predict the restof the year. Jalen woke up at the crack of dawn, his bottle spilt in my Coach purse (which got into my phone and my camera), then I go to get Jalen grapes and a whole bottle of juice falls to the ground and splash! I was ready to go back a year after all that, but the day ended with a lovely dinner and putt-putt with Nicholas!

The beach was good. We got to see my Grandnana and she got to see Jalen swim. We didn't take her to the beach because it was not easily accessible, but we tried the pool. The pool is covered and was like ice-water (seeing as I am sick now), but for Grandnana I put Jalen in so she could see him swim for 5 minutes. Made her day! She's doing good and looks great..

We're now home and preparing for Jalen's birthday! I sit here and think that he is going to be 2 years old and just want to cry!! How is my baby already two? I remember the day he was born like it was yesterday and though I'd gladly go back, I wouldn't give up any of these moments. I never knew a little boy could teach you about what the true meaning of life and happiness is. He showed me what love is. I would never trade him for the "normal" life of a 20 year old. Motherhood is the best.

I was reading Jenni's blog and she made me think... There are so many times that people have bad days. We want to give up and many times just totally quit, but you have to look at everything you have and be thankful. Being a Mom, being in a relationship, going to school, and working are all apart of my life and sometimes things getter harder than I want them to, but I know I have to keep going. Sometimes you just have to be thankful that you were able to live the day... (Gosh, I wish she lived closer!!)

I will post pictures soon.

Remember.. it's the simple things in life that matter the most!
Doesn't the smile from your child mean more than those new pair of shoes?

Me, Me, Me..

A. Attached or Single? Attached
B. Best Friend? My Sisters & Emily
C. Cake or pie? Cake
D. Day of choice? Friday
E. Essential item? Cell phone (I know, I know..)
F. Favorite color? Pink and Purple
G. Gummy bears or worms? Gummy Worms
H. Home town? Raleigh, NC
I. Favorite indulgence? Getting my hair done..
J. January or July? July
K. Kids? 1 - Jalen Nicholas!
L. Life isn’t complete without? Jalen's smiles
M. Marriage date? n/a (Ha!)
N. Number of brothers and sisters? 2 wonderful older sisters
O. Oranges or Apples? Granny Smith Apples
P. Phobias? The dark and bugs
Q. Quotes? It's the simple things in life that matter the most! Think about it..
R. Reasons to smile? My family, Jalen, Nicholas
S. Season of choice? Summer - The beach, tan, etc...
T. Tag 5 people: C'mon now, I don't have that many friends.. Ha!
U. Unknown fact about me? What don't people know about me? I guess that I do not need tangible things to be happy.
V. Vegetable? Potato
W. Worst habit? I hate folding laundry!!!
X. X-ray or Ultrasound? Ultrasound
Y. Your favorite food? Pizza and Chicken Fingers
Z. Zodiac sign? Leo
Z. Which zoo animal is your favorite? Monkeyy!

Back to Reality

Well, we got back from the quick trip down to Myrtle Beach. It was a good trip, but short. It is hard taking Jalen on those short trips. I'm suprised you didn't see us on the news for the drive back. Jalen screamed the entire time after Elmo finished, so for about 2 hours! After being down there and going to the memorial service I realized that sometimes in life we focus on our mistakes and what we should have done. But when you leave this world, people do not focus on what you didn't do and how you could have done things better, they focus on your accomplishments and how much you meant to this world. I guess sometimes we all should forget what we didn't do and learn from it, rather than dwell on it. But, my Grandnana is doing very well and we will be seeing her this upcoming week because we're going down there to vacation for a week. We saw a lot of family and it was good being together.

I started my new job when we got back and it is going good. It's hard having to tell people I don't know how to do something, but I'm learning and getting there. I think I'm picking it up pretty quick. I'm loving having days off during the week because I feel like I get to see Jalen more. Works out good for us!

We'll be planning Jalen's birthday party this week. It is for the 24th. It is just family this year, which will be nice! He loves Elmo, so that is his theme. I just got his Happy Birthday banner from the UPS man. It's very cute. Will put pictures up after the fact. Can you believe he is going to be 2? I wish I could stop him from growing, but I will find out August 20th if I am having a neice or nephew!! Exciting day all around! :)

Like I said, we'll be heading down to Myrtle for a week with my Mom and sisters. Nick, Jalen, and I will leave Sunday night and be down there until Friday. We'll be celebrating my birthday down there on Monday. Hard to believe I'm going to be 20! I don't want to grow up. Ha! Anyways.. I hope everyone is doing well. I'm adding pictures! Enjoy!